I think I want to attempt discussing the topic of free will.
Curious if I’ve gotten any better at explaining it.

Free will is proportional to the level of awareness that we have.

The more aware someone is, the more free will they have.
In an absolute state of awareness, you have absolute free will.
In a state of non-awareness, you have very little/no free will.

Awareness is what allows us to be fully present within ourselves, within our lives and within our relationships and connections with the world. By fully present, I mean genuinely present - as all that we are, on all levels of our being. Awareness is after all our ability to hold a full connection to ourselves and to the world. Nothing is left out, nothing is hidden, nothing is disconnected within - we know who we are, and we know what the world around is also.

When you truly know yourself, and you know the creation/reality you are in, you become very present in the moment - very awake, very alive, very embodied, very conscious- what we would call enlightened in a sense, or illuminated. Awareness is like a flashlight that you shine upon yourself and the world - in a full light, you can see everything, nothing stays hidden - all is revealed, all is within reach.

In a state of full awareness, as you go through life, you are fully present within yourself each moment, fully paying attention- you know who you are, you know what you want, you know where you’re going, you know what you are feeling within, you know the truth of your own journey, and you know how it fits within the grand journey also, you can feel and perceive how things work around you - you are basically very grounded in each moment, in each step - your attention is fully there, while at the same time internally you have access to all the information that you need.

This puts you in a place of immense power - as you walk through life - you are genuinely interacting in each moment with it - you are present with life every step of the way, you are standing on your own feet, anchoring yourself in it. You are not just watching life, as an observer, but actually living it, fully, in all of its intensity, and within the full intensity of who you are.

Life doesn’t move you - you take your own steps, and you move yourself through it, each moment, out of your own awareness and will. This is what gives us the ability to create and interact with life, the ability to bend things, to think and decide for ourselves, to create change, to switch journeys, to create impact. Awareness turns you into an anchor - it gives you weight, it makes you heavy, and life in a sense slows down where you are, it’s pulled in, and you have the ability to take it into any direction you’d like from there on, as you choose to move yourself.

This gives you absolute free will.
This gives you the ability to really change things.
What’s fascinating about this though is that while you have absolute free will, in a way, it appears and feels as if you have no free will - meaning that you are so aware of yourself, of who you are, of what you want your journey to be, so aware of your place in the world, so grounded, that you don’t even have to really ever decide anything - you just know what to do, where to go - that inner pull of awareness guides you all the way, because you just know who you are.

You could choose to do anything, go in any direction, you have the full power to do so, and yet, you will only ever choose to stay most true to yourself - to follow who you really are - each moment you will know just what to do. Out of infinite choices, you know exactly which one is yours. That’s the irony about absolute free will, from an absolute state of inner awareness - it fully exists, but is completely unnecessary. We don’t use it.

I remember worlds where we had such self awareness, where we were so connected to ourselves - so completely connected to the truth at the core of our beings - so powerful in our ability to decide our journeys, so powerful in our ability to create with life - and yet it wasn’t even a concept to go against that truth, to randomly change journeys, or do anything other than what naturally just flowed out of us. Everything was a flow, and we each had our own - the flow of authentically being ourselves. And when we did just that, we all flew in such balance with each other - because at the core of our beings we want to grow, to evolve, to love, to enjoy life - and to flow in alignment with that is to flow in full respect of everyone else as well. It was so easy, and it never dawned on us to do anything other than that. Nobody had any interest in suffering, in destruction, in abuse, in going against the truth.

In a sense, free will fully existed, but it was irrelevant, because there was only one flow of life pouring from within. Only one truth to follow.

In our current reality, in a way, we are experiencing for the first time the true meaning of free will, at least in the way we humans define it here - the ability to choose anything, to go anywhere, change our journey as radically as we want at any moment- including fully going against that authentic inner flow, including going against truth, against life. We have the choice to go against ourselves - it exists here. We can really do whatever we want here, all is open, and all is allowed.

Neither one of us carries the level of awareness that would prevent us from going into any other direction than our own. We have traded awareness in exchange for this version of free will. A very different kind of journey - when you are walking in the dark, clueless as to who you are, as to what you want from yourself, from your journey, from life - and your flashlight is malfunctioning or very dim, and you can barely see anything within or outside of yourself. It’s so easy to go on a journey that was never yours to begin with. Or let alone, how easy it is to disrupt the journey of another - even when they themselves are actually walking in truth and awareness of who they are.

Awareness creates harmony, flow.
It creates the freedom to be ourselves.

Lack of self awareness, or lack of care for awareness can quickly create chaos, disorder, messy flows. It creates the freedom to be anything we want to be - including anything other than ourselves.

Of course, there will be many souls curious to experience this, to experience what it’s like to be anything other than your own self - even the complete opposite of who you are. Curious to experience a state of very little or even no self awareness at all. But the thing about having very little or no self awareness, and this is where it becomes ironic again, is that you have the free will to be anything, and yet, because you are not present within yourself, not grounded into the moment, you are not even there at all to make decisions for yourself. Any choice you might make won’t even come from you, because you yourself are not even there, it will come from any of the aspects within you that aren’t you. A lack of self awareness takes away your free will altogether - and all you can do is float in a sea of uncertainty, pushed by whichever awareness you do hold within (not your own, but taken from others, in the absence of your own).

A lack of self awareness basically throws your natural free will completely out the window, and replaces it with a disconnected, impersonal, random, often instinctual form of free will - you just do things without knowing why you’re doing them, without putting your own personal weight, your inner depth, your truth into it. When you withdraw yourself from the equation, anything could happen, and mostly we operate on programs we pick up from others - so we let our lives be dictated by anyone else who can figure out how to do so - what a power to give to someone, to dictate our choices.

People in this reality are all over the spectrum when it comes to awareness and free will - some are very aware and hold a great deal of free will of their own, some are very unaware and hold very little free will of their own and so many are somewhere in the middle, holding some awareness and free will, but also often holding very little awareness and very little free will. It’s a matter of choosing in which direction of the spectrum we want to go - chaos or order, true free will or no free will, being ourselves or not being ourselves, awareness or non awareness.

I think I’m getting better at translating all of this, at least I hope I am - for me such an incredibly profound and important topic.

so before I get much further here, its imperative to note this isnt a complete article..but a condensed skeleton that needs to be further unpacked and explained..to be of any utility for most people.   It relates directly to the previous post Here.

So to continue, here is the outline, until I get around to making this out into a longer form , fully fledged and articulated document...

On The Topic Of Total Deprogramming, the simple solution- 

 Ok so let us get right down to it shall we? thats just. Well. A real fancy way of alluding to the nonlocal multidimmensional nature of the spirit, which is falsely called your personality your whole indoctrination process. The indoctrination process is complete , you graduate to being manipulated when you pick a personality for yourself. You are infinitely non definable by your true nature.
This is extremely not understood by 99% easily of the world population.. Its really, really misunderstood/interpreted.
To help out greatly redefine it as
A person doesnt actually have alters. or multiple personalities..
they are - multiple personalities..
as in,
They have different ways they can self express.
.........thats it.
thats the big secret to that.
The whole mk thing the whole ti, trauma alter thing, etc ALL of this is...
...100% mis-labelled.
..they are experiential programs, or internalized learned external projections.
And THAT. is the basis of the big psyop. and all other psyops,
social engineerings,
ad infinitum..
The ego is currently so fragile and amnesiatic, most of you are trying to learn astrophysics, memorize all the details of everything,
and I was right there with you,
in that sickness..
until this got this one small thing above, figured this out.
The ego is programmed to cling to all manner of internalized projections, because its multi-dimensional nature has been,
supressed essentially since birth,
early speech,
And shaped by absorbing externalized patterns, due to this amnesiatic lack of understanding, that the mind is whatever it need be,
at any given moment, it need not choose a definitive position, ..or mode of being...

The people/beings/force de jour/whatever/names dont matter etc ,
Manipulate this vulnerability, in ..human -nature-
To attempt to achieve different states of expression en masse and on an individuated basis, via the imprinting of repetitive, specific experiential patterns.
And to remove oneself from the influence of all programming,
The spirit/being must make the effort to remove themselves from detail and influence. ...and
One has to be aware of HOW, they feel thinking a certain way.
At the beginning ...
to leave this trance of amnesia.

Some hints:
Did it come truly from me as authentic desired expression,
Or ... did I learn it? How do i know this?  Why do i know this? 

From where did it come?

After a while you will automatically ignore everything, Basically.
this means your ego has healed,
and your multidimensional nature,
is back on..
and you will notice you could care less about things, but you still can see them happening.
it doesnt make you an asshole,
it means you've healed,
the externalized reaction projection scenario.
Any expression of love that does no harm to you or others, is love.
Everything else... that feels bad or taxing, is a reaction ,
....either to a program you internalized,
or to someone elses internalized program,
they are mindlessly projecting into your experience.
you see even people projecting negative experiences onto others, are doing so automatically,
borne of this amnesiatic ego identity manipulation,
it has become their identity in whole or part to act this way.
And.... thats the big secret. .........its that straight forward.
Love in all actions.
When you remember your nature, you will be incapable of harm.


...to be continued..



In general, in regards to memory, I feel that perception of external stimulus in human memory storage in part can be shaped by formative experiences, mostly stored non-locally and is electromagnetically transduced per situation, and subsequently the response and delegation pattern the individual is acclimatized to.

It is usually backwards if the event triggers the amygdala in past or present..Therein this is the root causation of MPD/PTSD, a repetitive triggering of what I say here next in this paragraph.  The stimulus is first observed, but response is typically from synaptic nerve motor ganglia rather than an emotional response weighted alongside an intellectual response. However most people have an observation, then a motor response, tightening of muscles, a facial expression, a pain in an organ, rather than a feeling, then inaction and only stillness in pure observation. Not observation of triggers, but observation via the synergy of the senses. ''Observing being hypervigilant to pattern based triggers'' is a symptomology of the problem I will be describing in some depth here in this article. If its traumatic enough, the body reacts first from the place of the muscle/nerve memory, and secondarily if one is not too disassociated in the emotional sense, it will then trigger the emotional sensing feeling and intellectual processing as a secondary event. Versus the correct order wherein sensing feeling direct intuition is as the primary absorptive axis, and engrained feelings that undesirable do not exist, but for most people they do, and thusly are reinforced regardless of the actual outcome from the stimulus event, unless someone has deprogrammed this and reprogrammed themselves insofar as their processing of events and external stimuli.

Things that stick in memory generate a complex neurochemical/synaptic cascade or repetitively both. More or less, period. The ability to recall and reregister state based memory (it all is state based) is supposed to be emotionally encoded by direct intuition, but for most its encoded by external registration of traumas, and a battle between the nerves, the motor cortex, the senses, the limbic and endocrine, the stomach, the adrenal and the brain, as well as the supra and sub conscious minds within the brain. I will go so far as to say the very ideation of a seperate supra and subconscious mind is entirely false, and this helps infact with the perpetuation of the things I will be discussing here. But if you see me referencing them herein, it is so you have a basis of understanding, because that is how we have been programmed to think. Although it is fractured and incorrect, it is all that most people know. So if I deviate too far from that as a baseline device fir the organization and delivery of my message here, it won't be comprehensible as the paradigm is quite unfamiliar territory anyway, and I very much know you will begin to benefit from understanding all of this.

Moving right along...if you are able to recall it and its not there as a physical stimulus, you can retrigger the same neurochemical or emotional cascade sequence and associated biochemistry as the original event. So, if it sticks, assuming one is referencing the ability to recall a more or less ''seemingly permanently engrained or ominpresently conditioned conscious memory,'' it is supraconscious artificially, through the process of traumatic reinforcement. Thus, its registered as being critically important, and it is in your short term memory if it is your first exposure, or if you have been highly sensitized to a particular thoughtform, it can be omnipresent in your awareness.

But how we arrive at storing information and memories this way is really the crux of the issue, in the most important sense. The subconscious mind registers EVERYTHING, however the natural way to learn is automatically immersive, from a combination of how the sensory inputs make us FEEL, and this ends up being the direct intuition, and at a secondary level, by the outcome from interacting with an individual, or animal, or construct or ideation of thoughtform. This secondary is more superficial, but we are trained to make it more important than how we feel about something, someone or some thing, and this creates part of the problem.

However, memory and learning the things we usually end up with, the ''what we get,'' is quite a bit more strange, especially in terms of how its percieved, why it's percieved that way, and in how it is stored and how it got there. Often times phenomena to link memories abstractly via the senses- is indirectly triggered after the experience by smells, tastes, sights etc - that were present at the initial reference point where the thing being ''remembered'' occurred. By the way, a little wordplay for you- to ''re-member'' something is to assemble its body again, re-assemble its members, so that you can re-member it.. What you are doung there is electromagnetically, and electrochemically bringing it forth into your field, and ''thinking and feeling'' about a thing. These thoughts, these ''things'' are both stored in the electrochemical makeup of the body itself- and with the souls template, and are brought back into subatomic form for your body to experience anew. Back to the way we are taught to learn... We are taught to learn first through the muscles and limbic system, and to an extent in the blood as well, especially during the transfiguration of strong extant memories as they move from short term ''memory'' to longterm ''memory.''

Back to that subconscious thing.. As far as things you cant remember, from your individuated experiential memory, your subconscious remembers all of it.. Even if your supraconscious memory has an active awareness of a memory event or does not. The events are recalled as we navigate this world seemingly at random, but the subconscious is typically reminding the supraconscious of some internalized trauma that it wishes would be rectified as they come to our awareness ''our aura is becoming weary'' or worn, by this troublesome thing, that needs and sorted out to a phase neutral state, and moved out of our being. You will comtinue to find the trigger and bring it into your awareness and perceptual field as you move through this three dimensional timespace until you bring yourself charge neutral around that circumstance or event, and then you will no longer run across it.

As a point of note therein - of and in regards to emotional embedding, and embraiding of memory negative and positive have been reversed in the predominant nomeclature of psychological therapeutic literature. Having a positive experience is what we are told we want, but actually a positive experience is explosive.. and destructive.. we are negatively ionic beings based on fractal enfoldment of emotions and in ratios.. The. Waves in the ocean are generating negative ions as they crash, and as they crash they are fractals, enfolding.. braiding with gravity.. and generating charge compression..But not to get too deeply into that, while it is related, it is another topic entirely. So, with the negative embraiding and referential subsequent fractal enfoldment there is within each of us unlimited storage for properly enfolded memories, because it happens in such a mechanism that it all folds into itself neatly, and is transduced electromagnetically on demand, and is thus a fully non destructive mechanism, that requires zero effort. We are built to do so. We are negative ionic based beings biologically and meta 9of possessing qualities thatvare external to the 3-dimensional physical form) (meta-physically. (extra)-physically.

A storage of positive ionic charges is biologically destructive and oxidative, it causes oxidative stress and a total disregulation of our physical mental and emotional and spiritual (soul) frames and the way they inter operate. So.. moving on..

So much deep deep anxiety we experience is caused by the stored positive unresolved charge of something that was deeply troubling the first time around and not resolved by attending to it in the first place when it happened, and correctly storing the proper emotional charge state, and embraiding it with emotions with the sensing feeling and biological electromagnetic driver in the body- the heart.

The hearts job is to magnetize the emotions and ensures everything is negatively charged through the mechanism of carrying this magnetization through our blood, ensuring our body is held in the proper charge state, and proper emotional state of embedding and compressed charge. We often just bury our emotions and are taught to suppress or discsrd or ignore them, because that is what society and to a lesser extent our friends and family or even partners teach us to do. This hurts our hearts. The main vehicles this pattern is influenced by initially and then later in life are by mass media, our education system and the style of learning we are put into from a young age- and later at jobs. A program of systematic repetitive ''rote'' method of repetitive learning, starting from a young age, in school.... Which gets us used to the concept appearing again later in the workplace... but this process, buries and embeds an incorrect charge.. and eventually this has bad consequences, which are detrimental to our health, physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually and on a soul level.

We are subject to a ruthless jamming of the five senses, by our teachers- first in school.. then later in life by our external role models.. our friends, partners, bosses... once everyone has more or less internalized the same system, it becomes seamless, transparent, all pervasive and perpetually reinforcing. There are no reasons for gates, as they have been built into your fundamental way you both perciieve and interact with the world you live in.

The senses get overloaded, and just kind of give up.. Rather than utilizing the native learning mechanism which is sensing feeling integeative emotional processing of a directly intuitive sensory input...and regulated by the heart, we end up just going with the incorrect method, since it is so prevalent, and so familiar to us. In most cases it is all We ''know.'' We are taught and forced to to log-jam the senses and the body and acclimatized to this until it becomes fully automatic. Taught to hold onto and memorize things our entire lives that are not even important to us for the duration of our entire lives, and that this is normal... This causes tremendous internal discord.

Just as a quick pount of note, we have 100,000 times more neurons and neural connections in the stomach than we do in our actual brain...This is because when we eat, our stomach is tasked with picking up the negative net ionic charge of our food, and carrying it through the blood for distribution as coded against keeping the system working properly as dictated by the dna..and the heart... This is commonly known as ''digestion.'' When you read information on a screen all day, or you. Watch television or movies all day, or listen to music for large periods of time, you are blocking your ability to emotionally digest anything, because the pathways are saturated. You are ''full.'' But back to your stomach.. thats why you feel full, there is enough food in the stomach that you now have a rush of blood in the stomach that was pumped down into the stomach lining that needs to be recharged with negative ions.. just like thee waves. Coming crashing to the shore, the blood is being drawn to shore, electromagnetically, tonrecharge itself, and pick up food to convert into negative ions....so you can generate energy.. to power the system...which is your body.. Youe body does all of this intelligently. So.. back to the un-natural way of school based learning..

We are jammed full in school, then we must regurgitate, for test time. Which is why it causes butterflies in the stomach, the information isnt there! It wasnt deemed as relevant, and you have not connected with it enotionally and deemed it important of longterm storage.. so its floating around in your short term auditory and physical muscle memory from taking notes, and in your visual cortex. It's not in your longterm memory, which is first in the gut, and then fractally compressed and embedded elwctromagnetically and transferred to the soul.

Thats why when you are really passionate about something and it causes absolutely no stress to do it is effortless and zero 'thinking' is required- because you are ''in the zone'' you are accessing it from your soul template electromagnetically in a beautiful harmonious symphony- of using your body in a more true to form sense, if the task is of your own want and desire, than its 100% natural, if there is no external ''bad'' consequence in physical repurcussion from not performing the task (such as not being able to make a car payment.)

But the way we are forced to do things, a chronic overloading of the nerve axiomata because you were told a certain thing was important and so you are doing it (and your ''heart just isn't in it'') as you were told these things were important, but your intuition did not deem them as important, is extremely unnatural and very stressful. The facts that it was never important to you on a intuitive heart level, is of the utmost importance here, as you never connected with the material in an organic naturalistic sensing feeling manner, and end up recieving negative reinforcement through shame, guilt and embarrasment, to your bodys native processing centers- as you force yourself to ''try and learn'' it, usually not registering that you didn't actually want to go through that process or dance with that information, to ''store'' it along the way during your struggles to ''learn'' it..

Thats why we hardly remember anything we learned in school, because it wasn't first important to us, in an emotional intuitive sensing feeling oriented flowing process. Enough of this and it at some point breaks a part off your spirit.. The repetitive process of jamming oneself ''full'' in this manner divorces and robs us from the ability to exist and learn in our natural flow state, which if you are lucky most people only experience in a hobby.

It takes a tremendous amount of focus and deprogramming and self analysis to push past all these engrained pattern based learning mechanisms, that society enforces, school enforce, etc.. to be able to return to your native way of being in flow- in all of your experiences, thoughts, emotions (feelings) and dealings. The reversal of how we are taught to learn fundamentally shuts down our capacity and ability to process lifes' events in a faithful and a natural organic way- true to your bodys intended design.

We are further taught to buy into all this by a perversion of our self image- beginning in school, and later in life by movies, media, magazines, song lyrics, and authority figures.. further skewing the emotional interaction we are capable of holding with our world and within the self. This programming is for men early in life revolves around career, money and winning a mate, getting a good job and a degree, and winning the respect and adoration of your peers. For women it is primarily centered around not understanding the ways of the world, being dumb, and implying that she willl make a poor mother, caretaker and undesirable partner, or even worse never find a mate.

All of this initially superimposes and then internalizes deeply in the subconscious as a buried mechanism by which one can be easily manipulated and controlled, initially a transfer of guilt and shame and fear and scarcity is installed, and then this becomes a self perpetuating internal paradigm, that was initially a series of external thoughts...That once becomes internalized shapes and colors EVERY single thing you do..

Therein, this construct itself foremost is full of very unnatural pre-suppositions behaviorally and emotionally for a human being to experience repetitively, and thus alters our relationship with the world, ourselves and with others on a fundamental level. This is why school is started at so young an age, it is un-natural period.. and this is a huge reason so many people are so deeply programmed and unable to even get into their most basic layers. They are so divorced from themselves they know no other way of being, experiencing, sensing and feeling.

For the purpose of their own healing and reintegrating themselves into generating healthy responses to lifes events, and the subsequent repatterning that is necessary for healing, they have little to no reference point, or place to start from, and it becomes more or less nearly impercievable, this disconnect from the natural self- by which they would be able to effortlessly neutrally percieve this world and the events in it- which includes the way others act, their responses, and their emotions surrounding any particular experience they may have in life.

Most people are stuck in this place of traumatic repetitive cycling, and their own processes are repeating in a stuck loop ad infinitum from a place of incorrect perception, improper emotional hygiene and the lack of self referential perspective to accomplish anything in a natural and organic manner without forcing it by trial, error and the superimposition of learned failure..On a fundamental perceptual level, a biochemical level, and an intuitive emotional sensing feeling heart level, they are trying to do everything backwards. And this all stems from how we are taught to learn, and how we are taught to store and access memories and information..

Defining the acceptable parameters of the questions looking for an answer never leads to discoveries of solutions, usually, just a revolving door, a more immersive approach is often necessary.   There are solutions, but that was not the scope of this article, it would have been too complex to intercede and overlay/interweave both problem and solution together.  One must first understand and ''innerstand'' as the new hippies say- with the problem so they can know it, and only then can one proceed to a more unified version of themselves.  First one must know that which they are dealing with, however its important to mention that the solution almost never comes from the variables that created or perpetuated the problem, but some can be helpful initial markers, its a tendency all too common to ''stew and marinate oneself in the problem endlessly rotating it different ways under different colored lights and lenses-  because to a traumatized mind- this is safe, and feels like they're at least not ignoring themselves.  But the car isn't quite in first gear, and it's sitting on blocks, without tires.  A different approach is necessary for integrative discivery and subsequent healing and renewal of self, and spirit, and in most cases body and nearly all- mind.  


Thank yourself for reading this..


The minute someone thinks they know you ,

has you figured out..


And you accidentally amplify one of their insecurities about something else by simply being, and somehow touch on the subject, directly or indirectly, even non specific to them-

Theyre brought right back to feeling insecure about that other thing.
Even if it has nothing to do with you.

You serve as a temporary waveguide/mirror/reminder/whatever- and they either look at it in themselves or avoid it in a new way until it comes up again for their opportunity to grow from it by coming to peace with it under new clarity.

But the predominant issue lies in the person with the insecurity anthropormorphising that trait onto you in a transferrance/ association,
Because this act is one of avoidance of owning up to processing the uncomfortable subject at hand , and often times the person who was the triggering mechanism gets blamed or now has that quality improperly attributed to them- from the perspective of the person having a hard time.

People do way too much of this.

One important thing to realize,
Is truly-
Most people are peacefully going about their existances,
Doing the best they can,
And not trying to go out of their way to screw with other people.
The ones that do that second thing,
Are best left to their own devices until they learn to play nice with others,
But in general no decision needs to be made-
Most people truly mean well all the time.

The next time something has cone up thats troubling you,
First communicate within yourself and ask whats occurred,
And then ask them about the situation as it unfolded to your memory.

Often you will see the disparity between their intentions and your percueved meaning right away.

Growth happens when you can understand the event objectively for what it is, without needing to compartmentalize it or be negatively affected by it. Not necessarily in that if there is a concrete physical harmful effect, but in allowing yourself to see something for what it is, and impartial to any previous hurt that caysed when it happened in the past. Seeing things as just occurring is wonderful, because really-

Most everybody does not mean you harm.